Day 21 Blog Challenge

A letter to someone who has hurt you recently.

Well there isn't really just one person who this letter will go out to it's more of a group of people kind of for the same reason.

Dear so called Friends,

I'm sorry that my life wasn't as perfect as yours was, I'm sorry that I wasn't rich or even had a minimal amount of money. I'm sorry that growing up I had a hell of a childhood that you couldn't relate to but I tried to relate to you, I was always there as a friend for you. And when I needed it the most or even just wanted someone to talk I couldn't even turn to you. I've had friends stab me in the back and I acted like I didn't care. I've stood up for you when others would talk shit. And what do I get from all of this? I have been the one to reach out and try to stay in contact. I've been the one to plan events and invite you and your kids and your spouses even when I didn't have one. And out of all my efforts I got NOTHING!!! I have never been able to understand or accept that I don't have any REAL friends. And you know who hurts from it all?? ME, I do. I don't know what I did or didn't do to have people not want to be friends with me. I don't know what I could have done differently or if staying with my son's father would have made you stay friends with me but is that really fair for me?!? I wish I could say that I have had best friends or life long friends. I wish I could say that I am still friends with some of my childhood friends but I tried and it turns out i'm not important enough to them. So if your reading this and think you fit in this category take your turn to do something about it if you care to. Otherwise so long my once upon a time friend. Because my guilt, shame, resentment, fears, emotions, and feelings for you are gone.

T