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Tuesday, May 17, 2011
I feel like i'm totally going Crazy!!! There are some things I really hate about being pregnant and the Hormonal Moodiness is a BIG one!!! I miss not feeling so upset or pissed off at the dumbest little thing. Which being pregnant makes me need to worry about the little things. I have to worry about everything. We went on our vacation to Vegas and Arizona and I loved seeing my sister and nephew and spending so much time with them. But I felt like I was constantly fighting with Mike, Constantly annoyed with my mom and just really unhappy. Then we get back home and it still feels the same. Mike and I have to fight over the littlest things because I can't just say yes I want this to eat that sounds good. Hello!!! ALOT of food doesn't sound good!!! I can't just tell you what I want or need if I don't know what I want or need. I can't just jump out of bed and do everything I need to do right then and there. I have to be slow and eat constantly and it's really really frustrating. Then I have to feel like i'm not even important anymore. I feel like everything else overrules anything I want or need. I feel like I just have to sit on the couch to relax while being ignored. I feel like i'm just this crazy nutty person that noone wants to be around or talk to. Let alone get close to me. I constantly have to feel everything about this pregnancy and take really good care of myself and my teeth and Jayme and try to not worry about the frustrations. And work full time and be constantly tired and moody. I've totally lost myself and I know I will feel better when I'm a little further along but right now i'm seriously going CRAZY. I just want to feel like i'm not alone. Like i'm not going to end up alone with another baby. I just want to feel like someone understands my crazy frustrations and moodiness. I don't want to be Invisible!!!
Met the love of my life and looking forward to the forever future with my wonderful family. I met Mike officially at the end of March 2010 we had worked together for over a year but never really talked until one day I commented on a post on facebook, then he started talking to me at work over IM we had long conversations and had so much in common so we decided to go on an official date. Best Date ever even though he got pulled over(LOL) and we just hit it off. He helped me move into my mom's new house and then a few short weeks later he proposed and we moved in with him. Married on July 2, 2010 and have never been so happy. Let's see what the future of happiness brings us :)